Mind Scrambled

I don’t know if my mind is quiet or overactive as it seems to be doing both at the same time and I can’t figure out what the heck is going on.

I guess it’s because there is so much uncertainty around what we can and cannot do in this day and age that it’s hard to see a beginning and an end. Where does one start and the other begin? It’s hard to plan much in advance, and therefore commit to anything, without knowing for certain if plans will change and therefore is it worth building up much excitement knowing that it could be snatched away at any moment?

Sorry, I know this is not making much sense right now. this is just the garbage that is going through my head and I feel the need to vent these thoughts.

Despite all of the uncertainty with the new restrictions coming into play, and more are due to be announced within the next 72 hours by the Stormont Executive, I am still looking forward to opening new possibilities.

I have ordered a special book for keeping all my records of any Rune work within it and I will be calling it, “Odins Gift” as it was Odin who gifted the runes onto mankind. I have also ordered a few necessities for the new laptop (which I am not going to fill with useless software can cause the same problems as the last time) as well as waiting on the engraver to arrive at the end of the month. I have bits of wood and leather set aside on which I can experiment with the view to making gifts for friends and offering services to my Viking group.

I think the other issue I am having is that I have read so many books (well over 52 since 21St January 2020) that I have reached a kind of saturation point and I am just reading for the sake of it. It has lost some of its pleasure and now feels more like a habit than a real joy.

Finally I think, for the sake of my Mental Health, I just need to get out somewhere new and do something for myself. Though, with the current and new restrictions coming into force, this will be hard and therefore creating a vicious cycle where mentally I am being worn down as I can’t get out and the less I can get out to ‘reset’ my mind the worse I feel.

Time will tell what happens next…

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CelticWolfe

I am someone who has spent the last 30yrs living with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) as a result of being a Victim/Survivor of 'The Troubles' in Northern Ireland. I am a fossil collector, avid reader, writer and photographer and historical reenactor. I enjoy spending time with my family and spending days, and nights, out exploring the wonders of this little Emerald Isle.

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